Chapter 298 The Perfect Asshole & Pussy:>>Ep8

• "Honestly, that is all I ever wanted. That was the thing that I thought you deserved. It wasn't that you deserved...I don't know, someone sexy. I don't think sisters, even fucked up sisters like me, really want that for their brothers. What I wanted was for someone to do the thing that I did, to look beyond something superficial like...the shape of your body, to see what kind of person you are. I wanted the kind of woman you deserve, a truly good woman, to see that you would make them happy, and to give you a chance. And tonight, I think that I just wanted to show you that your good traits aren't invisible. They are infinite and they are obvious to anyone who takes half a second to look. And I wanted you to know that I saw them. And appreciate them. Because I love you. I just got fucked up in my head when I tried to do it. I am not as thoughtful as you."
• I delivered this entire monologue to the side of Ben's head. He had kept staring at the ceiling the entire time, just breathing and staring. He barely blinked. I wasn't even sure that he was listening to me. But the words flowed out of me, no control at all. I guess that was a problem I had. But when I finally finished up, I realized that for the first time, I'd really captured the entirety of my feelings for my brother. And I had been honest with him about them, the good and the bad. The narcissistic and the altruistic, all in one. I didn't like everything I said about myself. I didn't hate anything either. I was ugly and I was beautiful, just like my brother. He realized that too.
• "It is okay Rach," he said. His words were simple. He didn't elaborate. But he turned his head and looked at me as he said it. I could see in his eyes and hear in his voice that he understood. "No one is perfect," he said, "the best we can hope for is that people accept our flaws and recognize our strengths. I know you love me, Rach. Even if you are confused about the way you show it. I love you too."